Don't they make a pill for this...

Today is not good. I can’t really put my finger on it, but I just woke up and I can already tell that today is not good. I feel like a mess. First of all, its 9:15AM. Even though I can mediasite (watch lectures on the computer), I would prefer to get up early enough to have as productive a day as possible. Instead, I have no consistency. I got up yesterday at 11AM, and Tuesday I got up at 9:55AM (5 minutes before I had to be in my PACE session). Secondly, I still feel like I have no plan for studying. How can I have gotten through a year of medical school and not have a successful plan?! It makes me feel like I have just gotten by and that does not feel good, nor is it what I want. I know they are just trying to complement me, but I am sick of my fellow students telling me how smart I am and that I am lucky that I don’t have to study as much as they do to get the same grades. What they don’t understand is that I would kill for their discipline. Sure, I can work up the determination and motivation to really get down to business when I need to. But, I’m like a sprinter while everyone around me is running the marathon. I will probably cross the finish line, but will I be a great doctor when I get there?