5th semester failure...so far

I feel totally unprepared to be a doctor. In 5th semester so far, the theme of lectures seems to be "you learned this wrong on the island and you look like an idiot doing it." Things have not been going that well with tests and papers either. I did pass the COMP exam on the first try (by like 1 point) but I am starting to think that is a disadvantage. Pretty much everyone I know failed it the first time, but you can take it 3 times and it does not count in your grade for 5th. The problem is that you have exactly 6 months from the day you passed the COMP to take the Step 1 exam. Therefore, passing it right away means I also have to take the Step right away and I am definitely not ready for that. For our first paper on a patient, I received an "unsatisfactory" which is basically an F. Granted, I do not know a single person who passed the paper and it was probably the worst paper I have ever written in my life, but that just shows again what we learned wrong on the island and have to relearn here. Thank God I passed the ACLS class easily, however if I actually had to run a code I think I would have a heart attack myself. This poor track record for 5th so far is not very encouraging and I have a midterm this coming Monday. Great. Lets hope for a change in the tides this Monday. Wish me luck!!

PS - I cut and dyed my hair and got another tattoo, just to keep you all updated.